Friday, October 28, 2005


Helen, the thirty-seven year old Filipino woman I've been seeing for the past sixteen months, mother of a ten-year old son back home, has been diagnosed with ovarian cancer. She had her uterus and ovaries removed a few days ago here at Bangkok Hospital. Chemo to follow, probably in the Philippines.

I'm stunned and sad, angry and confused. I have no idea what I'll write about in the days and weeks and months ahead, but this is a very personal, profound journey, and it's not my place to chronicle it here. I thought I was a pretty philosophical guy before. But now.

Let me just say: If you are a woman, or if you know any women, please dot not ignore any inexplicable weight loss or pain in the lower regions. Ovarian cancer is hard to detect, and when it is, it's usually late in the game.

As for the title of the post, it may be cliche, but it's not meant to be ironic. Live for the moments, and the people you share them with, because life can be one cruel bastard at times.


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Lana said...

Very sorry to hear about Helen...cancer's a bitch and very scary. Wishing you both well in recovery.

Jim said...

Knowing you now thru your writing
I feel she must be a special person
and we will keep you both in our
thoughts and prayers.

Le Will said...

I hope she recovers quickly, I'm sure she will come through just fine. Lots of luck to you both and my thoughts are with you.

Craig said...

My mother spent twenty-nine years in remission, so don't give up hope. Bangkok was the right choice. Hang in there.

Muktuk said...

I am so sorry to hear of this. It is just terrible.

I will be sending you both lots of healing thoughts and energy. Don't forget that there are people all around, so use the people in your lives for strength, answers, company, and commiseration as necessary.

Much love.

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